Every Day I Plan

Recently I am really tired. I got tooo much to do, that I couldn't finish. And my mental as well as physical health status is just in danger. I am always tired, exhausted, losing my hair, eager to sleep. Sometimes I couldn't do anything, but most of the time I just buried myself into the task in my hands, thinking of nothing. I don't dare to think too much. Because there's always a question hanging there, that is, what's the meaning of all of this? Why on earth am I worried about my TOEFL? Why do I try my best to learn, to do everything? What do these things targeting? A success? Some happiness? What is a success? Is there any happiness?

I don't dare to ask. Not only because I do believe that there's no answer, but also because all of my intimates just told me to not bother myself thinking of these useless things. But I have another question here: if these questions don't have answers, then aren't those trivial problems in daily life truly useless?

Hell. I don't want to talk about them too much. I don't have time. I am trapped in these trivial things, and I just wanna be trapped. It's better than die, isn't it?

Soooooo, I am gonna set several rules for myself. That's about what to do and how to live:

  1. Get up 30 min earlier than routine and go to practice English speaking.
  2. Get to sleep before 12 every night.
  3. Definition of Things during Rest Time:
    1. Reading books. (Recommendation: ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️)
    2. Sleeping. (⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️)
    3. Listen to English podcasts. (⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️)
    4. Coding. (⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️)
    5. Writing here. (⭐️⭐️⭐️)
  4. Definition of Rest Time:
    1. After the sunsets and there's no homework that must be done.
    2. Naptime in the noon.
    3. Weekends after finishing homework.
  5. Daily Tasks to choose from (2 out of 6):
    1. Running.
    2. Learning vocabulary.
    3. Listening to English.
    4. TOEFL Tests.
    5. Reviewing courses.
    6. Learning extra computer knowledge.